Well, another year is upon us. It’s a new year and new beginning. Mostly, it will be annoying to teach myself to write 14 instead of 13.
I have no new years resolutions because I don’t think they ever stick, at least not for me.
2013 was not a horrible year, but it wasn’t my best year. The horrific loss of our 2nd still haunts me on a daily basis and I don’t believe I will ever get over it. You don’t ever know until you’ve been through it. And I would wish it upon no one.
It feels refreshing to think of 2014 as a blank page, and saying goodbye to 2013. We don’t have any huge plans for 2014, but I do feel it will be better than the previous. I am anxious to see what it holds for us.
I haven’t been blogging because, honestly, I’ve been a ‘Debbie-Downer’ for months now. I try to put on a good, brave front… but it’s been tough for me to act normal and remain optimistic and happy when it just seems hopeless and dark. I feel time will be the only healer for what ails me and time is seemingly slow when you’re waiting for something so anxiously to happen. I find joy in B every single day and my love for him just grows stronger and stronger when I thought it couldn’t. He is my everything and I thank God for him constantly. I don’t forget how blessed we are with him.
I miss blogging, though, so here I am. I figured why not start with the new year and see how it goes. I know that people probably don’t even read this thing anymore and that’s okay with me. It feels cleansing to write things and if it is beneficial to me, it’s all good. 2014 will be a year of what is good for my family and myself. Sounds selfish, doesn’t it? It is, but that’s what we need to do for us. We need to focus on ourselves and what is in our best interest. As should everyone – we need to focus on what makes us better people, happier, and more fulfilled. What might that be exactly? Not 100% sure yet, but I do think we are on the right path to finding it. Optimism is tough for me but I am working on it. Work in progress over here. <<Construction Zone>>
B turned 4 in December and I still can’t believe it. We had a purple-themed birthday party and it was a success. A good turnout and a happy boy means success to me! He got lots of great presents and handled himself really well. I was proud of how well he handled the larger group of people and having to wait to open presents. That’s tough for a little kid!!!! Patience is tough for everyone.
Work is work. I have been busy and that’s not a bad thing although I still dream of 4-10’s. #agirlcandream
Christmas was good – L&M were in town for Thanksgiving but not Christmas – but S&B/B/B came over to my Parents’ house for Xmas Eve. Went to church and came back for dinner and then present opening. Christmas Day we woke up and Santa had come!!!! What did Santa bring for B? Trains, of course!!!! His favorite thing in the whole world, right now. 🙂 We opened stockings and then headed out to Daddy P’s Dad & Stepmother’s house to celebrate with them. I proceeded to drink lots of red wine, some out of a huge glass, and we opened some presents over there as well. A great time, as always. We met up with Daddy P’s Mother the previous Sunday as a sort of Xmas get-together instead of doing it early on Xmas Day this year as timing wasn’t working out so great but the early meeting went well and was a nice alternative. I was blessed with some good gifts this year for sure – my faves would be my Elchim Hair Dryer – GAH! I love LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE this thing. I can’t explain to you how much I love this thing. If you have thick hair and it typically takes forever and a day to dry it – this is your new bestie. I received this beautiful dryer from my amazing Man and I cannot shut up about how much I love it. I never knew I would love a piece of equipment like this so very much, but I do. Did I mention that I love it?! I also got a Fitbit Flex from L. It tracks my activity and even my sleep. I have linked up with others that have it and it’s awesome to have people to ‘compete’ against, it is really motivating!!! I cannot forget that we received MOO!!! My awesome parents bought us part of a cow – meaning we know where this cow has been and what it’s been eating. SO amazing and awesome!!!! I also received lots of other gifts that are all sorts of awesome. A hand mixer, a very cool Canon lens mug, an adorable Anthropologie mug, 2 new fishing rods, my very own tackle box, a pretty scarf, funny tshirt, socks from Santa, etc. etc. I was showered with lots of goodies and I am thankful for them all. I also spoiled myself with a new mini iPad. I love that little thing also. 🙂 Did I need any of it? Absolutely not. Do I love it all? YES! Who doesn’t love getting gifts? I also love giving gifts and hope that our gift recipients love theirs as much as I love mine. 🙂
So here’s to 2014 and starting anew, again. I look forward to my future with my family and all that this new year will bring us. I won’t be blogging on the daily, but I will probably find my way to writing about more crap more often than I have in the past few months. It feels great to get it out. Here’s to 2014 being a blessed year for everyone!!!!!
Now I will go practice writing 14 instead of 13. #realisticgoals