Grief.

I have not been blogging, nor have I been reading blogs. I haven’t been reading my FB news feed much, nor have I really posted all that much. I’ve stayed away from Instagram and haven’t picked up my camera for a while. Life seems gray… and I can’t quite bear seeing all the posts about people’s cute prego bellies and adorable little babies. 

This past Monday, we had an ultrasound and there was no heartbeat. I was supposed to be 8w5d pregnant, but our baby was already gone. We were heartbroken. It felt surreal at first, and then it hit hard; the reality of it all sunk in. It’s absolutely horrible. The entire experience. It’s horrific. 

I am taking a hiatus from FB, Blogging, Blog-reading, Instagram, all that stuff. I am focusing on my family, and holding Bennett a little bit tighter. Each day gets a little easier and I will eventually return to all of this stuff, but I need to give myself some time to grieve. 

Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better

                                                                              –emily coue

Until later…

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9 thoughts on “Grief.

  1. Oh sweetie – I’m so, so incredibly sorry to hear of this. I had no idea. I feel so insensitive. I’m thinking of you and B and Daddy P and praying for you all. Love from Texas!!!!!! xoxoxo

  2. Anika and Pat,
    I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your little one. Please know that you are in my thoughts and heart as you navigate this difficult time. There really is nothing better for you to do right now except exactly what you are doing, being still and grieving. Sending you all lots of love. xoxo

  3. So sad. Heartbreaking. Really sorry about what you’re going through. You do what you need to do to process this time in your life. I don’t think you’ll ever regret taking a break from social media to focus on your family and yourself.

  4. I am so sorry for what you are going through. I can’t even imagine the pain you are feeling. Please know that you have a lot of people thinking of you right now. Take as much time as you need and enjoy your family. You are all in my heart.

  5. Ashlie

    Anika!!! I’m so so sorry! I’m just now reading blogs. Praying you find the peace you need, and life becomes less gray. Hugs from Texas. Take care of yourself, girl.

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