I have not been blogging, nor have I been reading blogs. I haven’t been reading my FB news feed much, nor have I really posted all that much. I’ve stayed away from Instagram and haven’t picked up my camera for a while. Life seems gray… and I can’t quite bear seeing all the posts about people’s cute prego bellies and adorable little babies.
This past Monday, we had an ultrasound and there was no heartbeat. I was supposed to be 8w5d pregnant, but our baby was already gone. We were heartbroken. It felt surreal at first, and then it hit hard; the reality of it all sunk in. It’s absolutely horrible. The entire experience. It’s horrific.
I am taking a hiatus from FB, Blogging, Blog-reading, Instagram, all that stuff. I am focusing on my family, and holding Bennett a little bit tighter. Each day gets a little easier and I will eventually return to all of this stuff, but I need to give myself some time to grieve.
Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better